Right. [ An agreement lanced through an exhaled laugh, not that it sounds all that amused in any way. More uncomfortable than anything. ] I'm starting to get that impression.
Are layman's terms alright? I'm not familiar with how any of it works...
[ And he really doesn't want to insult anybody's intelligence. He takes a deep breath as far away from his communicator as possible because while he's willing to sacrifice privacy in order to get information, he knows it's a lot to put on somebody else. ]
Full disclosure: I was dead before I arrived. Not just dead but... dispersed DNA. There's been a couple theories I've heard about how exactly we're pulled in regardless of medical status prior. I have no idea which if any are close to the mark. But now I'm wondering what exactly I left behind if I'm here now... with a body.
[Stephen makes a low, throaty affirmative noise at the question of whether non-technical speak is fine, just a casual 'mmhmm.' At its most generous, it sounds like he doesn't want to interrupt Shepard's trail of thought. At worst (and maybe more likely) it could sound like he's multitasking and only partly listening.
There's no additional noise from Stephen's side initially as Shepard explains, though as soon as there's a pause Stephen makes a thoughtful sound.]
There are a possible options and they can relate to a few different ares, both separate and overlapping--physical, temporal, and dimensional.
I can't tell you exactly which would necessarily relate to your specific situation, but I can tell you some possibilities I've heard about and noticed in this particular dimension.
One possibility is that you were brought here a fraction of a second before your death and upon arrival the nanites went to work. You technically hadn't died yet, so you were removed not only from your world but also from your projected timeline to create something else here.
Saying you had dispersed DNA back in your world sounds pretty final, like you're saying you were atomised on some level, is that right? [He doesn't really pause for confirmation.] If that's so, you probably don't have a body to return to and you're now existing in a totally different trajectory of yourself in a very different plane of existence. It's even possible that being reduced to matter in your work meant some kind of reassembly in this one via the imPort process.
How am I doing so far? This lining up with what you've been hearing?
It's... a lot to comprehend but not because the doctor is talking above his level of understanding. If anything, Shepard understands in painful detail the theories being shared.
Neither are ideas he likes, but he has a strong preference towards one of them. He's not the kind of man to believe something just to make himself feel better, but he's hoping the reality is closer to the second option. Leaving his own world behind without a resolution for the Reapers isn't one he can personally bear.
Realization hits him belatedly, the fact he hasn't said a word in response ricocheting to the forefront of his mind. When he speaks, his tone is even, level despite how upside down and sideways reality feels. ]
Something like that, yeah.
[ Ultimately, it's the lack of closure he can feel himself already struggling with. Has he left behind all the people he cares about, the entire galaxy, to be wiped out by the Reapers? How's he ever going to find out? And, if he does, what can he do about it from here? ]
Couple of people mentioned getting sent back to their world. Guessing that's not a choice that can be made?
[ Backing down from difficult conversations isn't in his DNA, so whatever the answer he wants to know. If he can't actively choose to go back, to return to whatever state his world is in, that's something else to grapple with mentally. ]
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Are layman's terms alright? I'm not familiar with how any of it works...
[ And he really doesn't want to insult anybody's intelligence. He takes a deep breath as far away from his communicator as possible because while he's willing to sacrifice privacy in order to get information, he knows it's a lot to put on somebody else. ]
Full disclosure: I was dead before I arrived. Not just dead but... dispersed DNA. There's been a couple theories I've heard about how exactly we're pulled in regardless of medical status prior. I have no idea which if any are close to the mark. But now I'm wondering what exactly I left behind if I'm here now... with a body.
Sorry. That's a lot to just uh... yeah.
This is stupid late, I'm so sorry :<
There's no additional noise from Stephen's side initially as Shepard explains, though as soon as there's a pause Stephen makes a thoughtful sound.]
There are a possible options and they can relate to a few different ares, both separate and overlapping--physical, temporal, and dimensional.
I can't tell you exactly which would necessarily relate to your specific situation, but I can tell you some possibilities I've heard about and noticed in this particular dimension.
One possibility is that you were brought here a fraction of a second before your death and upon arrival the nanites went to work. You technically hadn't died yet, so you were removed not only from your world but also from your projected timeline to create something else here.
Saying you had dispersed DNA back in your world sounds pretty final, like you're saying you were atomised on some level, is that right? [He doesn't really pause for confirmation.] If that's so, you probably don't have a body to return to and you're now existing in a totally different trajectory of yourself in a very different plane of existence. It's even possible that being reduced to matter in your work meant some kind of reassembly in this one via the imPort process.
How am I doing so far? This lining up with what you've been hearing?
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It's... a lot to comprehend but not because the doctor is talking above his level of understanding. If anything, Shepard understands in painful detail the theories being shared.
Neither are ideas he likes, but he has a strong preference towards one of them. He's not the kind of man to believe something just to make himself feel better, but he's hoping the reality is closer to the second option. Leaving his own world behind without a resolution for the Reapers isn't one he can personally bear.
Realization hits him belatedly, the fact he hasn't said a word in response ricocheting to the forefront of his mind. When he speaks, his tone is even, level despite how upside down and sideways reality feels. ]
Something like that, yeah.
[ Ultimately, it's the lack of closure he can feel himself already struggling with. Has he left behind all the people he cares about, the entire galaxy, to be wiped out by the Reapers? How's he ever going to find out? And, if he does, what can he do about it from here? ]
Couple of people mentioned getting sent back to their world. Guessing that's not a choice that can be made?
[ Backing down from difficult conversations isn't in his DNA, so whatever the answer he wants to know. If he can't actively choose to go back, to return to whatever state his world is in, that's something else to grapple with mentally. ]